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3:36 PM
Updates! Quarrel with dear on Friday night due to some misunderstanding. The incident goes like this. As I have promised Jake to go clubbing with him earlier on after he is back from Taiwan training. I haven’t wanted to go clubbing this few times as being attached, I don’t have the urge to go anymore. Instead, I prefer spending the time with my dearest. That night, we went dinner with his colleagues, feeling abit weird as it looks more like a guy’s night and me tagging along doesn’t seem right. So I thought of Yokeling might be somewhere around as she always go MoS to club and I haven seen her for long. Hence, decided to msg her as well. Her replied is that she is going to some KTV pub at Katong so I won’t have the chance to meet up with her anymore. Meanwhile, I asked Shan what’s his plan for that night. If he’s going out with xiong they all, I may be able to tag along. Throughout the dinner, everything is fine. They then decided to go somewhere near Suntec for a drink. Dear and his friend were talking and were not in their job line; I do not really understand what they were talking about. Out of the blue, Shan called me. So I just walked away to talk as I felt rude talking on the phone in front of them but who know it caused a greater misunderstanding. All of them thought I was going to Zouk with my friends but I was just teasing Shan as he was telling me that Xiong and Jiafu recently keep fly his kite by last min told him they don’t want to go out. Therefore, I was talking rubbish to him asking him to fly their kite and stuff like that but who know that I mislead dear further. He thought of me making plans to go out while he’s with his colleagues.
Then Shan said he wants to talk to dear so I pass the phone on to him. He then told him things like he’s very angry of me making plans of going out and said that he ask me to go ahead of the clubbing w/o him but I do not want and now I’m doing so many planning. I was so angry when he told Shan all those as later they will no more ask me out le. Both of us were very angry at the point of time and I do not wan to give in at all. So I walked away.
Was really feeling so lousy. Was crying the night and when I woke up the nx day, I saw his msn msg, make me cry again. I miss him a lot but he nv call me and I’m still wanting to be stubborn.
He then came to look for me. I was angry cause he took so long to come and still make me cry when I just woke up. So I ignore him and went out. Then when I’m finally calm down, I just want to see him so much but he’s right there at my door waiting for me to open the door. Happy Again! The happiest thing is that dear proposed to me. But he haven tell mama yet. He told mummy but mummy says he crazy and everyone is crazy all getting married suddenly. Think she’s not use of the two sons will be moving out and stuffs. We intend to get married end of next year! So now waiting for him to ask mama.
Lolx! What a long update. Back to work. Cheers..
Always by your side SnOwY
11:19 AM
thanks foe telling me all those in msn.. i din noe that it was me that was not ready.. why did my tears fail me n keep coming dwn.. ripping myself apart is all i know to do to myself.. i allow all this to happened.. i knw i wasn't ready for any rs in the first place yet i still jump into it.. ppl tell me i also din want to listen, nw all this is happening, i will blame myself but no one else... i din expect too much fr u.. i also nv expect anything.. maybe sub consiously i did.. if so, i'm sorry.. i din noe i brought u so much unhappinss den happiness.. i shall make myself disappear fr u.. give u back ur own life.. i'm sorry..
Always by your side SnOwY
11:46 PM
once again felt so worthless.. it umpteen times i been feeling this way.. felt being rip apart alive.. I know i haven been a good gf to you.. but at least i tried my best to be one.. if i nv stand in your shoe to think about things then i have nothing else to say.. for two weeks, where have we been except hospital to visit your mum.. i make the effort to go dwn everyday, to please your mum and dad.. Even when daddy and mummy every time ask u to go back home, how much i wish you would be staying over.. not leaving me behind.. wadever your mum say me, i take it aside and not to think about it.. in my family, you get all the praise, but in your family, what did i get.. i stangling so hard to manage everything and i nv think in your shoe.. i really dunno wad else to think or say.. but i guess we really need to cool dwn and think all over again.. tolerating all my nonsense has been a stress and pressure to you..neither do i know how much can you take it.. if you know one day you won't be able to take it, please let me know early.. dun tear me up totally..
Yeah! i'm being a thrash again.. whahahaha... Nobidy wants me now.. anyboday? on sale.. whahahahaha... yeah!
Always by your side SnOwY
5:12 PM
Currently in office thinking what I should be doing since most of my stuff done and am too lazy to help ppl in office so decided to do some blogging. I have been neglecting my dear bloggy feel kinda sorry for her. Hee.. Anyway, some latest updates..
Dear’s mummy is still hospitalize.. In the event if u ask what happen, it was because mummy was only diagnose of breast cancer. Hence, she decided to remove and reconstruct.. Due to age, she was warded in ICU for two days and two days in High Dependency Rm.. Right now back to normal ward which we are very glad and happy she is at least walking, sleeping and eating well.. All thanks to our Heavenly Father and also the doctors.. Hee.. The doctors that did the operation are Head of breast Cancer and Head of plastic surgery.. Hee..
Dear’s bro has confirmed his wedding on 24 Nov 07.. They are in the mist of preparation of their BIG day.. Daddy was funny coz he pulled dear dear out of the ward 1 day and told him this: “I woke up today and realize why don’t we have a double celebration since both of you are ready too. We can have a double wedding.”
Dear dear was blurred after hearing what daddy say.. lolx.. I believe we would love to but we are not financially ready for this.. so better save ar.. lolx.. Mummy also have gave her “blessing” to us.. hee..
I have only been to office on Wednesday last week.. Wasn’t feeling well the whole week and was on MC.. but was in hospital the whole week.. Surprisingly, normally we will find time to watch movie or stuff but we didn’t.. We are more concern of mummy.. Everyday we dutifully went to visit mummy and acc her.. Things are great nowadays.. but the stress and pressure are still there..
Went to lunch earlier on and decided to spent some money to cheer dear dear up since he has been kindda depressed with recent events.. Hope he will like the small gift from me.. Hee… SURPRISE for you! Hee.. (will update again to let you all know whether he like it not.. )
Hope everything will turn out well and good.. Hee..
I MISS YOU!
GOD BLESS everyone with good health.. hee.. about time to knock off soon.. Hurray! (^_-)
Always by your side SnOwY
When your are down please remember i m always there for you*
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