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10:03 PM
haiz.. it was suppose to be a happy day.. bt nw dear dear is very upset.. it hurts me so much to know he's upset.. haiz.. i also feel like cryin le.. bt if i also feel upset, then who cheer dear dear up? so i must be happy den can cheer him up.. hee..
today acc his mama to see doc at Mount E.. den after that she say wan go eat wanton soup.. coz she wants mi to learn how to eat meat.. so tried to swallow 1 1/2 dwn.. almost vomitted.. but manage to stop it during the whole process.. bt there after, can't take it anymore after we went on seperate ways.. went puking and dear dear was kindda worried.. actually after vomitting, i still have the urge to vomit bt tryin nt to.. can't eat anything at tis moment coz i'm afraid that i will just throw it all out.. nt really feeling good.. hee.. bt with dear dear around, i'm fine.. hee.. for once i wan to make clear wor.. i'm dun find it disgusting to eat meat or "Chang ren" to eat it.. bt i juz can't take it.. even when i tried to eat chicken in the 1st place, it's take years to learn hw to eat it.. and also nt all i will eat as well.. i'm still tryin to learn hw to eat chicken currently.. haha.. haiz.. better dun tok bout it le.. gonna throw out soon.. lolx..
next.. his daddy gave me a bible on sat during the shifting of his house bt it's still with dear dear coz we both forgotten to take or pass to each other.. and everytime wen we rem, we are at our homes.. daddy saw it at his room and wasn't quite happy bout it and was sayin that he wasn't impress with it.. i'm nt tryin to impress anyone that i wanna learn more bout christian.. neither do i tink it's smth to impress ppl with it and i dun do it for others.. i do it for myself.. coz i find that God is callin for mi.. that's the reason i initated attendin church service.. bt then, it still quite disheartening to hear wad his daddy told him.. i really dunno wad i shld do.. it seem like the failure keeps comin back.. the disappointment that you received.. bt dear dear will always be there to support me.. i'm just too glad with it.. it just one another test the God is giving me and him probably.. it just the faith we must have in Him to get thru all these tests.. there will be another big test over my side.. that's if mama nOe tat i'm gonna be christian, she sure will turn the world over.. i dunnO hw to break this news to her.. haiz.. there's so much to think..
Having a job interview tomorrow.. yet i have no mood to prepare it.. haiz.. i'm still feelin sick.. tink i shld turn in early.. Hope dear dear will feel better and cheer up.. his smile will brightens up my day.. hee.. waiting for dear dear's call.. hee..
Always by your side SnOwY
When your are down please remember i m always there for you*
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