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5:22 PM
Have anyone realise that the haze is getting worse? Haha.. I do.. (sound like the pastor asking during the marriage vow.. hehe) Anyway, air index is like my feelings now.. From high to low..
I admit i still love you.. i dun wanna hide the feelings.. but at the same time, i also know that we can't be together anymore.. When you love someone doesn't mean that you have to be together.. Or maybe i dunno wad is love afterall..
Ever heard of every start of a rs means both ppl is walkin together at the same path.. but when you walk down the path in the long run, you may leave the other party behind or your pace maybe too fast without u realising it.. or when both of you is at a cross junction, you may pick a different route.. I was left at the cross junction when you beat me in the 1st place.. you have carried on walkin the path with my shadow w/o realising that you had left me behind.. Now when i slowly turn towards the other direction and my shadow is gettin dimmer, you realise there's smth missing.. You ran back the direction you came from and look for me.. But i'm no longer there.. I'm ahead of you at the other direction.. isn't letting it go easier this way?
we came to an agreement that this 3 mths will be smth like probation for us.. if 3 mths later i still think tat we shld seperate then, he will have to respect my decision. I know is kind of stupid.. But i tink tis is his last resort.. I know the longer i drag, the more deeply i hurt both of us.. but is not that i dun wan to let go but is him who wanna carry on.. I dunno wad kind of attitude to show towards him.. i really dunno.. i dunno how to tok to him or be with him.. He came over on sunday.. he tried to talk things out but he din't manage to settle it so he force kiss on me.. he cried.. he coax.. he lied.. he did everything, but it only makes me more scared then ever.. I really out of nowhere le.. lost direction..
How do you maintain a long lasting relationship?
Always by your side SnOwY
When your are down please remember i m always there for you*
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