The week was fine.. But guess overall, i am until friday came.. Its another for clubbing.. supposedly to celebrate birthday for Jake.. all of us waited for him at Zouk almost 2 hours.. there he came.. angry hence, left for Dbl O.. Shan and all reached.. Saw Jiafu.. sianz.. Ha Ha.. ask shan not to be with them.. they went O Bar and we? upstairs Dbl O.. had fun drinking.. introducing friends to friends.. Make our way to dance floor back to bar.. up and down many many times.. Alvins friend, Fairus.. drank and dance with him.. This guy, he is great.. I mean he can know how I feel even I have seem him so many times but not really talkin to him.. What he say makes me stun.. thats why i didnt mind drinking with him.. 3am.. Dbl O closing.. He ask me to join them at Devils.. why not huh! hee.. took the same car as alvin.. Almost there but really not wanting to go anymore at that point.. Breaking down soon.. all emotion is flowing out.. I got him to go ahead but i guess i made him very angry as well.. he left and i sat alone there.. Crying and questioning.. there came his friend.. somebody i dont know.. But funny enough.. I told him almost everything about how i feel.. Cried infront of him.. I can say i'm a very strong person who i can control every emotion of mine.. He told me to break up with CHarlie after hearing everything.. He say he doesnt worth me being with him.. I am puzzle.. what should i do.. reached house downstairs around 6am.. went to the playground instead.. message him for him to accompany me.. but no reply.. sat until 7am.. decided to go home then.. Cried until my eyes are swollen.. bath and sleep.. didnt want to think anymore.. he message me at 7 plus.. but was soundly asleep.. suddenly woke up at 11 plus.. dont know why.. saw the message and return call.. called him the 3rd time he answer.. got scolding from him.. he was asleep.. so i hang up.. he then message me.. blah blah.. there and then i decided to delete his no... didnt even pick Charlie up from pasir ris.. didnt want to see him.. my mind is in complete blank.. i dont know what should i do what i should say.. i just want peace.. til now.. my mind and heart is very confuse.. maybe i really want to be single for now.. for awhile.. for sometime to clam myself down.. to think what i want.. should I?
Always by your side SnOwY
When your are down please remember i m always there for you*
